And another thing!!!

As I reflect on my life I realize that there haven't been very many positive black role models in my life. In fact, I've been meaning to write a letter to my dad asking, "Where the hell have you been?" Of all the males my family, one is finally a recovering alcoholic, one just got out of jail a year ago and practically missed his sons whole childhood. My biological father has been married 3 times and still hasn't paid all of his child support that he owes his 4 kids and to this day still doesn't call to check up on us. The only real positive influence I've had is from my step-father and I use the term positive loosely (although to his credit, he did have good ideas on raising kids but just bad execution) and my grandfather (who has some very warped views about life).
And unfortunately I'm sure a lot of black males my age have had similar experiences. The kids that go to our school and are in our programs are probably a bit worse of than I am. They've either seen their dads beat, murder, rape, or disrespect their moms, or they haven't even seen their dads at all, and everything in between. BLACK MEN!!! What are we doing here? Why is it like this? Why don't we aspire for more?!! Why arent' there more blacks volunteering and investing in the lives of young people? Why aren't there more board members and teachers and mentors and godly male leaders? Why is it that one of the leading candidates in the presidential election among black voters is a white woman (nothing against women so please don't go all politically correct on me)!!!!!! SOMETHIN' IS GOINZ ON, AIN'T RIGHT!!!!