Searching only for God knows what!!!

Searching. If there is any word that could describe my life right now it would be that. I am searching. I'm looking for something, maybe some sense of meaning or direction, or what my purpose and destiny are. But wait Will!! You're a Christian!! Don't you already know what your purpose is!?! Don't you know that you were put here to glorify God!?! Everyone that's thinking that as they read this, just calm down. I'm not recanting my faith. I haven't given up on God or lost the way or anything.
When I say I'm searching I mean that I'm specifically searching and looking for what God has for me specifically. Like, am I going to be a pastor or worship leader. Am I going to be a Bible communicator or a missionary out east. Am I going to be able to use all of my passions and talents in what God has for me?I am I going to be a youth pastor or senior pastor? Where will I live? What about teaching or acting. I love doing those too.
I honestly have so many passions and desires, and I don't really know what to do with all of them or how they all fit in my life.
Another thing I've been thinking about is what I'm searching for that has brought me to where I'm at right now. I live in a small town that is 2 hours away from my nearest relatives. I don't get home to visit or see them very often and for some reason I guess I'm ok with that a little. Is that weird? Is it bad that I don't really miss home? I feel weird saying that!! I should maybe say it again. I DON'T LIKE GOING HOME!!! What the deally yo? I know it's the truth and I guess I've known it for a while. But the question is why? That I'm not sure I can answer because honestly don't completely know why? I do however believe it has something to do with me searching only for God knows what!! Part of it could be my dissatisfaction with my own family and the search for what I like to see in family. Part of it could be that I like the fact that I'm out here by myself and am still making it (although ironically I've probably never felt more alone than this time in my life). It's probably a combination of all of those even though I still feel like there is something else that I could be missing.
I think I might be searching for belonging and completeness. Those two things have been scarce in my life. Even with my own family I've never felt like I totally belong and due to circumstances in life and the simple fact that apart from Christ no one is really complete. And that this side of heaven we will never be completely whole.
So here I am. Will Branch. Searching for only for God knows what.