Why I Hate School!!! or Life is Never what it seems!!

It's been some time since I've last blogged, and as I've read over the past ones it seems as though I've been angry or down. That is somewhat true I guess. I was talking to a dear friend today and we both discovered why we have been in such a great funk these past few years of our lives. School!! Ever since I started school I've been down about life and I've felt like a caged bird in a way. Honestly, I think college has been one of the worst times in my life. Sure I've had a lot of freedom and essentially I've been the master of my own destiny. But college has exposed some things in my life that have been and still are tough things to deal with. I've never felt more alone than I have at college. Being away from family ties, eating alone most of the time, and lack of people to relate with has been a major contributor to these feelings. Sure college is the time when you meet people and try new things but a lot of what I have seen in people is not what I want to associate with at times. I'm realizing how shallow people are. Most people ask the same questions over and over (what's your major?, what year are you?, what did you do over break?, what are you doing this weekend?). It takes time and effort, as most people already know, to build deep relationships and most people either don't want to take the time or the effort, and/or they still haven't figured that part out yet. I personally hate small talk and am probably too deep for my own good. Sometimes I think I make people feel uncomfortable by the questions I ask which are nothing more than an attempt to get to know people better but unfortunately people don't always see it that way.
Another reason I hate school is that it has exposed weakness. Weakness in multiple areas of my life. It has exposed: bad study habits, difficulty with punctuality, procrastination, the fact that I like to take on too much, the fact that I am lonely, ect. I guess we don't like to see who we really are, especially since it's really easy to fake it through high school.
Yet another reason I hate school is because I've never been so poor in my life than at this time. I really get sick of peanut butter and jelly, ramen noodles, ect. Granted I know there are times where I could have been smarter with my money, and I certainly didn't need all of those pizzas. I suppose having family and a place to go for dinner could've prevented that but there is still no excuse.
Another reason is that I feel like I haven't had any stability. In the past few years since starting college I've moved 12 times (that includes summer and winter). I used to think being on the go was cool but now I find it exhausting and depressing. I don't even know where my home is when people ask me. I'm from Milwaukee, but I live in Stevens Point. In other words, I'm in transition and don't really have a home. This fall I will be living with a family, which I'm sort of excited about but also a little nervous about. Life has been all around frustrating in college. Being an adult isn't really as fun as I thought it would be. Especially since I've been learning a lot by trial an error, mostly error in trial.
It's kind of ironic. I spent so many years wishing I was when college. I couldn't wait to get to college. Now I can't wait to get out. Life is never what it seems.